Nuvusan "Podcast"

Hey, how's it going? It's Corbin, and I'm just doing my second episode. I did one episode last week, and I think it's a fail. So today, let's just try to liften up the spirits a bit.
You know, it's like I'm on the edge a little bit, like a little bit. Not this, but I'm just, I'm just standing there and I'm, I'm painting the scenery. That's what my day's like today.
Actually, for the past four days, since I first uploaded my first episode, it's been very, it's been very like regimental. I've been here, and I've been there. I, one day out of the four days, I took a bus and I just went downtown.
I walked for like two hours around Ellington Street. I was alone, stuck to myself. I wasn't talking to anybody or trying to meet anybody.
I was just there. And I took a bus back home. And as soon as I got home, I forgot what I was trying to do out there.
I think I was just trying to, I had my camera with me. So I think I was just trying to stick to myself, take some photos of the landscape, whatever I find there, whatever. So I, I got home and I, I just started drawing, you know, like renditions of one of my favorite artists, Salvador Dali.
I try to do some of his, his object to life, blending of mixing shapes to faces and a little bit of letters because I like to add poetry to my artwork. It's not a big thing to add letters to drawings, but I find it captures just like the raw, whatever I'm thinking. Cause I feel like my, my poetry, it can stand out on its own, like a painting.
There's no need for it to be hidden in a book or only on a song. Like no, it deserves to be everywhere, you know, like anywhere. Sometimes I forget where I'm speaking to, you know, cause I'm doing this podcast for my school, my college, Algonquin college.
And I find it to be cool. It's cool. Got to stick to the rules and everything like that.
But after I'm done college, I think I'm going to continue this. It's going pretty good. Anyway, um, on, on Saturday, yesterday.
So on Saturday, right. Saturday. So I was, um, I was just, I woke up early again.
I do workouts in the morning. So my pushups, I didn't go to the gym. I just do it at home.
Anyway, it was kind of a nice day. So I did my, you know, when I wake up, I just get straight to work. So I do my pushups and then I get on my laptop.
I read my emails. But, um, the thing is I was just on my way back to my room after I, uh, I heated up some pupusas to eat for lunch, which is a Salvadorian based food. You can have, um, you know, chicken, beef or beans, and it always has cheese in it and you can dip it in this really nice tomato sauce.
And, uh, anyway, so I had that and then I, I was invited. Next thing I know, I saw that on my phone that I was invited to, uh, come out with some friends to a club, just a bar or pub turned into a club on the weekend sometimes. And it was like a Latin event.
I checked it out on Eventbrite, which is a good site if you want to ever get into anything you want, because it has a lot of topics. You can keyword search anything you want that interests you and it'll take you there. Anyway, I was there from 9pm to 12, 11ish and it was pretty good.
I, I recognized the music and I was doing some merengue, most of the, most of the, the song set lists. Cause that's pretty popular amongst people in, in Ottawa. I find for clubs, especially like Latin clubs, a lot of people here in Ottawa, Canada, they play that merengue music because it's like the jazz of, of Latin cumbia, but a little bit poppy also.
So it, it, it fits anywhere, like almost anywhere. And it's not like specific, you know, it's, it could be any, any country that that's intimate. Anyway, it was mostly a predominantly, uh, Mexican club.
And I, uh, I don't have any story to amaze you by. I'm just, I'm just telling you what happened. Just sharing some, anyway, from what I got from that was, uh, you know, it's another night out, but it was also, um, it was also like a chance for me to write, write down some ideas.
You know, I had a, I had an encounter with someone and they're just teaching me some footwork. Hey, hold on. I know how to dance.
I'm, I just got some tips on, on some new tricks for the future and whatever, whatnot. But I, I enjoyed my time. I came home by Uber and I just, just, um, started writing.
I, I haven't been drawing since. And I just, uh, just started writing. And, and then today, actually, I went to a studio because I had some studio time that my friend gave me and I put in some of that, that poetry I was writing in the club.
And it really, it was really like, like most poetry I write, but to pinpoint it in the club, the sense I was getting was like, when you're dancing, when you're just not focusing on external, but in, but internal like properties and your own values and your, your, you're almost like, it's almost, it's almost like imagine an abandoned hotel. You ever seen the movie grand Budapest, something huge like that. And, or yeah, so you're just there in a big hotel and you're alone and you're just walking through each lobby, each hallway.
You're not going into any rooms, but you're just walking and you're, and you're like kind of striding along. It was like that, you know, you're, you're looking inside of yourself and you're just, you're at peace with your structure and your foundation. You're at peace with everything that, that has happened to you or what you feel like might happen to you.
And you're just being taken by the rhythm of the merengue beat. And the next thing you know, somebody comes up to you and they're just, they're interested in the way you dance, the way that you're at peace with yourself. And for some reason they don't startle you.
They just allow you to keep being yourself, but you also respect them for, for how maybe well put together they seem. And I don't know what can happen from there. I don't try to start anything new.
I didn't even get this person's number or whatever. I just, I wasn't interested in that. I was just interested in being at peace and like, I don't, I don't, I don't need to recreate something when it randomly happens.
Cause to me that's perfection because perfection to me doesn't exist. So the closest thing to that is, is random moments that are put together. And when your own body tells you to slow down so you can examine peacefully each moment and breath and step.
And from that you can entirely encapsulize the essence of the moment in your head. What kind of theme? What kind of, what makes you wonder about this? You know, what can you explore in your head? How far can you go with this moment or situation? And how can you make it relevant to who you are right now? How does it make yourself reflect and only yourself? How does it make you, how does it show your progression within that moment, that hour? And how does it look on paper? You know, just think about the moment, not about your handwriting. It doesn't matter.
It doesn't matter if you paint it or, you know, like spray it with a marker. It doesn't matter. It's just, anyway, so I was in the studio and then I, I was speaking these lyrics and whatever you want to call it, poetry.
And then I just, I had a moment of realization and it was, it was pretty fun, but that was one out of many I have. And I just kind of shared it with you, almost sarcastically, because it's very, I don't know, I don't find it serious, but I find I judge it a lot. You know, I don't like to judge others, but I judge myself a lot.
And I just, I pinpoint things I need to express. I find it to be healthy. It's something anybody can do.
It doesn't mean anything. It doesn't mean that you're better. It doesn't mean that you're, you're way better than anybody else.
It just means you know, you know yourself and you're aware of your moral duties to society and in contrast to everyone around you, how does it affect you? You know, but you have to be, I find myself being cautious when I do this because I write a lot and I draw a lot. I make a lot of music. I just spill it out, you know, like a wound that never stops bleeding.
It's just, you know, or like a waterfall or whatever you want to call it. One of those infinite pools or whatever, a fountain. I just, I want to say, where was I going with this? I think I wanted to say like, just don't get too lost because you have to be able to function, right? When you're, when you're done with the studio session or you're done drawing for X amount of days or six hours have gone by, you know? So I just wanted to, to put this out here that if you can manage everything in your life and manage your creative side of yourself, that's it.
It's almost like that's all you need, right? To me, that's all I need. Like I have friends who are not musicians and who are not whatever, et cetera, and that's fine. You don't need that.
You don't need this whole environment around you. You don't need to be like, I don't have a single tattoo on me. I don't have, I had piercings.
I had piercings and I've had different hair, different emotions, different themes, different phases, right? I've had all of that and I just don't need it anymore. I don't, because it's from within that I can make it almost like punk rock and I can make it almost like trip hop. I can make it abstract.
I can make it, what's it called? Industrial. I can do that without even needing any makeup, get up, you know? I don't wear makeup, but get up. I don't need any external things.
I can just wake up, put my head to the whatever, you know? Like I don't need a group of people that share the same ideas as me. I don't need that. I just live.
That's all I do. You know, it's very minimalistic of me, but okay, I'm going overtime here. That's the podcast.
Thank you very much for listening again and I'll see you next Wednesday. Adios. This is the Anubhasan Podcast, episode two.
One more thing. I'm going to be sharing a song I made during that studio time that my friend gave me that I just shared about. And also I want to say that I'm my own producer and every song and beat you hear on my podcast and in the intros and outros, I make them.
So this is going to be the outro. This will be the outro and I don't know. I hope you enjoy it.
It doesn't matter. Here. I stare at the sun And I ask my friend Brown and prudent Even when you and we Single our movement Lie and make to tear out Entertain myself Help even when I Dare to Dare to Dare to Dare to Dare to Dare to Dare to Participate Instruction of faith She who went to Stare and I See you So I try Do I dare I'm going to save you, I'm going to save you, I'm going to save you